Feb 4, 2022

I LITERALY CANOT FUCKING TAKE IT. ITS ALWAYS THE INTERNET . TAKING UP MY ATTENTION EVERY SINGLE DAY. POURING MY LIFEPOWER INSIDE IT. IT IS NOT COMICAL IN THE SLIGHTEST. IT´S AN ADDICTION. EVERYHWERE I GO THERE ARE PEOPLE THEIR NOSES STICKED UP IN THE SCREEN. I AM ONE OF THEM. THEY CALL US ZOMBIES, BUT WE ARE NOT. WE ARE PEOPLE WITH GENUINE TOUGHTS AND FEELINGS, WRITING THEM UP ON A SCREEN. BUT IT IS NOT FUN. I WANNA BE A SEPARATE BEING FROM THE SCREEN. I WANNA BE FREE! THEN WHY DON´T I STOP? OH MY DEAR I´D LOVE TO LIMIT MY ADDICTION. BUT I CANT!!!!!!!!!! I CANT FUNCTION PROPERLY ANYMORE. A TINY SCREEN, CONTROLLING MY LIFE. NASTY ALGOTHRIMS AND PEOPLE BENEFITTING OF THEM. BENEFITTING OFF US. IT IS FUCKED UP, I SAY! PLEASE!!!! PLEASE STOP THE ADDCICTION!!!!!!! I WANNA BE FREE AGAIN!!!!! ONCE AGAIN!!!!! JUST GIVE ME ONE DAY!!! FREE ME FROM MY PRISON!!!!!


Feb 6, 2022

Im tryna get better w/this addiction thing, spending chunks of the day not being on screen. I think that with any addiction, one of the most important first steps is to regonize that (1) you´re adddicted and (2) it´s not a good thing. And there are also many other things I should get better at along with that. I can take baby steps; get better at stuff slowly. Of course, I am not perfect nor will never be, but that means there´s always time to improve. I think I should be just allright as long as I keep my heart on its place in the end of the day, and remember the core elements of my personal philosophy.

Of course. It is hard to stay hopeful all the time and that´s not what I am aiming for. There are things big and small in my brain causing stress and making me anxious, and I can´t push myself to smile all the time. I won´t even try that. It´s important to me to tell the world how I feel trough things.


Oct 22, 2022

Seeing myself as a separate person from the device. It is important...and that´s what I´ve kinda managed to do. It´s not my brain. My brain is my brain. My device is my device. I want to get a pink Nokia again.

Enough of that! Halloween is near! I´m gonna be a zombie vampire. I´m gonna look SO cool...I hope that I win the costume contest at my college omg holyshit but on feb 4 i said im not a zombie. who cares it was metaphorical anyway


Feb 28, 2024

guess what. remember when i said i wanna get a pink Nokia again. WELL I WENT BACK TO MY OLD NOKIA PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY i won!! i was stronger than my addiction!!!!! hahahahaha